She told me she wanted to have it all together before she came to church. By “it” she meant her kids, her house, the job she desired but didn’t have yet, transportation, and a conflict. Sitting in the local pregnancy resource center’s counseling room together, I immediately told her God didn’t require us to get ourselves all together perfectly before we came into His presence.
We left that room and she shopped for some diapers, wipes, and clothes for her youngest two kids with the points she had compiled through the earn-while-you-learn program at Life House Care Center. I prayed for her, we continued chatting, and then I realized I was no different than her.
I try to pull myself together – at least for any onlookers – before I walk into church. I go to others before I go to Him. I try so hard to solve and the problem before I tell God about it. I worry about what’s to come before surrendering to His ways. I try to perfect myself while I also proclaim I trust the Author of my stories.
I’m in one of those seasons where God is doing a big new thing in my soul, but it’s taking a bunch of small, faithful steps to get there. Honestly, it’s brutal and beautiful at the same time.
Meanwhile, I’m being reminded through my time with God, the books I’m reading, and the songs I’m hearing that we don’t have to have it – whatever it is – all figured out to be used by our Creator. His strength truly is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).
God rescues us and redeems our hard stories
so we can proclaim His faithfulness.
We have to be willing to share our story so others can know God more deeply through our experiences. Of course, sometimes sharing our story looks like a heart-to-heart with your husband or confiding in a friend. Maybe it’s voxing a group of friends who get you. Or maybe it’s sitting on a couch in a counselor’s office and digging down deeply. Maybe you’re called to share from a stage, but more than likely we’re called to share as we go about daily life doing everyday things that testify to God’s faithfulness.
Being brave doesn’t mean performing in big lights.
Being brave may mean making a phone call for an appointment you’ve been dreading.
Being brave may require you to do normal life differently than you’ve always done it.
Being brave means closing our mouths long enough to hear from God and those we trust.
Being brave means speaking truth in love even when it’s hard.
Being brave isn’t easy.
But being brave will change us from the inside out.
I have some songs on repeat in my house and my soul, so I put them together in a playlist that I’m sharing with you. I didn’t plan for this as I was gradually adding songs, but there’s a theme: God rescues. I also recently read Jamie Ivey’s coming-in-January book called “If You Only Knew: My Unlikely, Unavoidable Story of Becoming Free” and am in the process of reading “Kill the Spider: Getting Rid of What’s Really Holding You Back” by Carlos Whittaker. These books echo what God’s teaching me, and I’m sure you’ll hear more about them. I’m grateful for the repetition and pray God continues to bring revelation to my life.