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Jesus rearranges us

February 10, 2014 by Kristin Leave a Comment

When I was a kid, I used to love rearranging my bedroom furniture. Somehow I would manage to move the full-sized canopy bed, dresser, and bookshelf/drawer combo around the dark brown carpet all on my own. I’d avoid blocking the three windows that overlooked our backyard and the neighbor’s yard that diagonally separated my yard from one of my best friend’s.

Even then, I liked order. For someone who has long been reluctant to embrace change, I have no idea why rearranging my bedroom furniture was appealing. Perhaps controlling the change was comfortable for my perfectionist ways.

I could fall asleep soundly with my bed in a different place, but anticipating a change in life I don’t have control over could keep me up at night. Yet when we follow Jesus, we have to rearrange our life. 

The sermon in church on Sunday included that idea. I’ve been thinking about it since. As soon as our former pastor who still is on the speaking team uttered those words, I was taken back to pushing and pulling my furniture across the carpet.

And I remembered how I’ve dug in my heels so many times. I’ve stalled changes in life because I was afraid of what the new season would bring. I’ve resisted change because I wasn’t in control of what would happen next. I’ve said never to living where I live, a job I loved, quitting said job to be a stay-at-home mom, and enrolling my kids in a private school that turned out to be a perfect fit for us.

Never say never, I know.

Because Jesus may call you to lay down something down or pick up something new or invite someone in or go against what you’ve always known or take steps into the unknown. God doesn’t leave the us the same. He makes us new and continues making us new. He doesn’t leave us in the wilderness but changes us as we journey to the Promised Land.

In December, I had to let go of my desire to adopt a third child. It was bittersweet. It was hard, but it was freeing. Since then, I keep walking by the room I thought we’d make a nursery again. It’s just been sitting there. Empty. Bare.

God laid on my heart the desire to give the room purpose again. So as of Saturday, it’s a guest room. I have no idea if it will forever be a guest room, but this rearranging was necessary for my soul as I follow Jesus. Moving around furniture this time wasn’t as easy, but I’m glad it’s done.

In the process of life, God rearranges our desires and our decisions. He fills our hearts with convictions we never anticipated being important. He perfects us through real life that often looks nothing like we imagined. Sometimes it’s hard, but we’re always better for it.

Like I rested peacefully in that childhood canopy bed of mine wherever it was in my bedroom, I don’t want to be scared to let go. I want to rest in what Jesus has for me, even when it means rearranging my thoughts, desires, dreams and expectations.

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I’m joining Jen Ferguson’s Soli Deo Gloria party, Beth Stiff’s Three Word Wednesday and Lyli Dunbar’s Thought-Provoking Thursday.

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Filed Under: adoption, faith, life, quotes, seasons, Soli Deo Gloria, Thought-Provoking Thursday, Three Word Wednesday

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  1. kasmith03 says

    February 10, 2014 at 7:08 pm

    Beautiful!!

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  2. KristinHillTaylor says

    February 10, 2014 at 8:25 pm

    Thanks, Kristin!

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  3. Lisa notes... says

    February 11, 2014 at 1:17 am

    Is 43:19 is one of my favorite verses. Your picture is so lovely too.

    You sound like my daughter. I never knew where I'd find her bed when I walked into her room. Now that she's away at college, her furniture is getting a rest by staying in one place.

    I don't always like the changes God brings, but I want to trust that they are always for his glory and my good. Praying for your peace about not adopting a third child….

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  4. KristinHillTaylor says

    February 11, 2014 at 1:22 am

    Thanks for those prayers, Lisa. We were actively pursing a third adoption, but various things led us to lay it down. God obviously can do with all that what he wants and I would move out that queen bed if he told me to. 🙂 But for now this is where we are.

    I have read Isaiah 43:19 before, but I was so thankful to rediscover it yesterday. So much hope there. I took that picture this weekend when we were playing in the snow. I'm seeing the beauty in winter, which I have long declared my least favorite season! 🙂

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  5. Jennifer Camp says

    February 11, 2014 at 1:56 am

    There is such gentle peace here, in your words, Kristin. I'm so thankful for how you share your beautiful heart. Bless you–and praying for you as you continue to trust Him in healing your heart.

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  6. KristinHillTaylor says

    February 11, 2014 at 2:01 am

    Thank you, sweet Jennifer.

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  7. Mindy Whipple says

    February 13, 2014 at 1:29 am

    God doesn't leave us the same – and I am so glad He doesn't! Praying for peace for you as you let go and rest in Him. I used to rearrange my room too, as well as come up with hair brained ideas like painting my bedroom furniture my favorite color at the time – purple. Thankfully my parents declined but did consent to lime green : )

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  8. KristinHillTaylor says

    February 13, 2014 at 1:37 am

    I went through a phase of only wearing pink and purple dresses when I was a little girl. Purple stuck around as a favorite color of mine as well. 🙂 I'm so glad God hasn't left me the same – whew. Thanks for your sweet words and prayers, Mindy!

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  9. Being Woven says

    February 13, 2014 at 10:14 pm

    You sound like me as a kid…rearranging my bedroom every month or two just for a change. I am grateful that God is teaching me to be flexible. His ways are so much better than mine. Still learning!!

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  10. KristinHillTaylor says

    February 14, 2014 at 8:15 pm

    Oh, I'm still learning too, even though I know that he certainly knows better than me! Thanks for visiting and commenting!

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  11. Beth says

    February 15, 2014 at 8:11 pm

    "He makes us new and continues making us new. He doesn't leave us in the wilderness but changes us as we journey to the Promised Land." It's such comfort to know He isn't finished with us yet. And always comforting to know He never leaves us. I know I say this often, but thank you for allowing us to be a part of your life. Love you.

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  12. KristinHillTaylor says

    February 15, 2014 at 8:16 pm

    Thanks, Beth, for always encouraging. It's easier to be real when there is a support net near to catch my words. I'm so thankful God isn't done with me yet. Love you, friend.

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Telling stories is my therapy and I love sharing them with friends on my porch.

The main characters in my stories are my entrepreneur husband, our high school girl who never forgets, our middle school boy who has no fear, and our joy-filled first-grade girl. As we live out our stories, we seek God as the author of them all.

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