Will You take me back now take me back and let me be Your child/’Cause I’ve been broken now I’ve been saved/I’ve learned to cry and I’ve learned how to pray/And I’m learning I’m learning even I can be changed –From “Growing Young” by Rich Mullins
God orchestrates moments. He weaves together people and places to reach our hearts. I knew God was working 15 years ago, but I didn’t realize what it would mean.
That Saturday night sitting in the Flaget Center sanctuary on the first night of the Chrysalis weekend was a turning point. I had been having conversations with friends about spiritual things. I had been wondering about this life and the next. And I was led to Romans 8:28. All of those things intersected in my heart and mind as I wrote down on a tiny sheet of paper things I wanted to give up. Then I nailed them to a cross. Literally.
That perfectionism and desire to please people should remain on the cross because died there for me. I have often tried to regain control over the details of my life, but ultimately my faith goes back to that night, when I gave up control for the first time and God promised me He’d lead me step by step through life. Thankfully, His grace covers all my continued imperfections.
I can still hear “Growing Young” playing in the background while I felt God bring peace to my heart while I sat with my back against the sanctuary wall. But, really, I was no longer against a wall.
Because God does work for the good for those who love him.
I’ve had to figuratively nail some of those same things back to the cross through the years. And I’ve had to give up other struggles. But the God who met me that night when I was a 16-year-old girl searching for her identity continues to lead me through life. And I am continually reminded He’s always watching down the road for me.
This is the second in a five-part series about how various events in January changed my life.